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I'm taken to a place in a day dream
My hands tied
My mind is racing
One of us is totally crazy
But I'm terrified
Of what you want to tell me
Keep yourself to yourself
Keep your enemy closer
I'm staring at reflections and hazes
Of my own faces
In broken places
When it comes I want you to tell me
Without a filter
Without any maybes
How will I know
Will it show
Just how deep it goes?
But will you love the pain
Buried in this unforgiving heart?
I'm running through the halls of my memories
My eyes are shut
In and out of phases
I'm tripping over buried conclusions
Trying to break the cycle
Personal convolution
How will I know
Will it show
How deep it goes?
But will you love the pain
Buried in this unforgiving heart?
Can you be gentle with this
Open wound and painful endings
Pouring out
Will you love the pain that's buried
in my heart?
I could tell you
How much all of this means to me
But then you'd just see through me
See through me
I could warn you
That none of these apologies
Meant anything
To me
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2. |
Sky Scraper
06:07
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I made sure I have my affairs in order
maintain sharp focus as my gaze grows colder
I can feel them laughing now
Their grins bellow our loud
But inside the bustling crowd
I remain irrelevant
I'm taking care not to get too excited
My feelings bare, I'm afraid I can't hide it
I can feel the rush inside
The adrenaline runs high
I think I'll enjoy the ride
But I'm still restraining
I'll run as far as my body will take me
Though I'm shattered none of this can break me
Down
You think I'll turn around
Go ahead and make me
I have stripped all of the excess
Now my fuel is the broken dreams I drag
Behind
I'll find
What will elevate me
I stand upon all of the bridges I'm burning
My world is empty yet it keeps on turning
So much that I could be
But will they remember me?
Only one way to really see
I remain free of consequence
My skin is broken and my body is bruising
The things I love and hate they seem to be fusing
So what do I do now?
I gotta get through this somehow
There is only one way out
I think I'll take it
I'll run as far as my body will take me
Though I'm shattered none of this can break me
Down
You think I'll turn around
Go ahead and make me
I have stripped all of the excess
Now my fuel is the broken dreams I drag
Behind
I'll find
What will elevate me
I stand against the attack
As all my senses snap me back
My patience strips away
I'm losing all the things I lack
I cannot be strong for you
I can barely have any strength for myself
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3. |
Mechanism
08:01
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The inside feels the same as the outside feels the same on the inside
I can feel
The mechanism
I'm staring at the center of the hole in the world
And it speaks to me
“What do you see?”
A thousand different answers leave my tongue
It's pouring out of me
“Are you afraid to be?”
I kind of like it here
I like the lack of surprises
There's nothing to fear
I think I'll stay in here
But I can feel something hiding
Inside my eyes
The inside feels the same as the outside feels the same on the inside
I can Feel
The mechanism
The inside feels the same as the outside feels the same on the inside
I am a part
Of The mechanism
You cannot let yourself hide inside
Accept the truth and rip yourself away from the lie
You will fail, you will be denied
So you can redesign
The mechanism
I am falling closer to the end of the world
I'm kind of excited
“What do you like?”
I want to be drowned in the cold of the void
Because it feels so good to me
“Liar”
I think I'll disappear
Into the nothing of silence
There's nothing to hide
I think I'll stay in here
But I can feel something hiding
Inside my eyes
The inside feels the same as the outside feels the same on the inside
I can Feel
The mechanism
The inside feels the same as the outside feels the same on the inside
I am a part
Of The mechanism
You cannot let yourself hide inside
Accept the truth and rip yourself away from the lie
You will fail, you will be denied
So you can redefine
The mechanism
Can you take me there?
I want to be everywhere, I can feel
The mechanism
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Emergence
07:20
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I can see right past your skin
It glistens to the touch
Smiling wide and open grin
It listens to my thoughts
Will you stay or will you go?
But I need you more and more
That's the sound letting go
I tremble in the dark.
I just want to loose control
Weaken the grip
And take it all
But I'm still emerging, I am always searching
I just want to take the plunge
Just one dip is not enough
If you saw this through my eyes
Would you believe?
I can close my eyes and see
The words you hide within
Falling down and folding in
I'm everywhere at once
Will you hold or let me go
I still need you here alone
That's the feeling of letting go
I shiver in the dark
I just want to loose control
Weaken the grip
And take it all
But I'm still emerging, I am always searching
I just want to take the plunge
Just one dip is not enough
If you saw this through my eyes
Would you believe?
Would you believe?
Would you believe?
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5. |
The Places It Hurts
06:27
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I can hear your thoughts colliding
I can feel there's something
You wanna say
I can tell you're in total denial
I know that your life
Has gone astray
How does it feel to look yourself in the eye?
You cry in your silence
You try to deny that you are empty inside
Apparent and blinded
Your projections and desire
To be mentioned
Lead to self imposed rejection
(How did you get this way?)
How can you live with your rampant denial?
Your ambitions on fire
You're wearing the mask of a desperate liar
Your claims are on trial
Expectations and the veil of
Imperfection
Yet you lack the self reflection
(What's it gonna take?)
Well I hope this cuts
To the core of you
Cause some of us care
About the things that you do
The future's unwritten
You failed to put down the words
I'm hoping this reaches
To the places it hurts
The places it hurts
What will you do when there's no time left to change this?
To make amends
With the lack of attempts that you made to reclaim this
Life that you wasted
All the anger and the hatred
They will find you
On your deathbed
What will you do then?
Well I hope this cuts
To the core of you
Cause some of us care
About the things that you do
The future's unwritten
You failed to put down the words
I'm hoping this reaches
To the places it hurts
You're running in circles
Getting in your own way
You refuse to make changes
Even just for a day
I think you're too complacent
You are too out of touch
You're afraid to be honest
Cuz it hurts you too much
It hurts you too much
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I can hear your thoughts colliding
I can feel there's something
You wanna say
You can tell you're in total denial
You know that your life
Has gone astray
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You are wasting time denying
You're hoping it would
Just go away
Spending all this time complying
Ignoring all the signs
As your dreams decay
Your pride and arrogance
None of that matters in the end
Can you take it to the grave with you?
Will you?
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Stillness
06:19
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It pushes, I pull
It takes when I am giving
Its gaining, I run
It lacks all understanding
I want to take it on myself
I'm bracing, it cuts
It breaks when I am mending
I'm healing, it hurts
I feel I'm near an ending
I want to face it by myself
Well I'm trying but I don't think you can tell
I've never learned how to embrace the stillness
'Cause There's violence
In my heart
I watch as my time is consumed in the hourglass
I am powerless
To make it stop
The memories fill me
Shatter the peace within me
But here in the depths of my silence and darkness
When you touch me
I feel loved
It bruises, it burns
It drags me through the sharpest thorns
And makes me earn
The slightest drop of contentment
But all I feel is resentment
It hates me, it waits
Just long enough to make me feel
Like it is safe
To raise my head from the water
Well then I get slaughtered
I've never learned how to embrace the stillness
'Cause There's violence
In my heart
I watch as my time is consumed in the hourglass
I am powerless
To make it stop
The memories fill me
Shatter the peace within me
But here in the depths of my silence and darkness
When you touch me
I feel loved
I may not have a lot to show
I'm overwhelmed as the feeling grows
My desire was to disappear, well I'm still here
I'm still here.
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7. |
UltraPerson
05:49
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You thought you knew me then
But do you know me now?
You thought you knew me then
But do you know me now?
My skin is bare
I stand alone
Looking for faces within the crowd
I am not
What I once was
I'd give it all to feel once more
You thought you knew my name
But do you now it now?
I stand here listening
But I can't hear the sound
My heart is bare
I crave your love
Looking for faces within the crowd
I am not
What I once was
I'd give it all to feel once more
Please forgive
I won't make you believe me
I would say that I'm sorry
If it only weren't a lie
Please absolve me
Of my transgressions and follies
Well I would say that I'm sorry
If only, if only
Don't you try to
Make me believe in you
How can I see the truth
When the lie tastes that much better
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8. |
Personal Lines
07:40
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My hands are cold
From holding on
To the frigid memory
Of these places inside of me
My veins filled with dust
Of what once was trust
My disgust is deepening
To the sound of my suffering
It's in me
The specter of my happiness
A body veiled with consequences
And fear of crushing loneliness
Well I
Have already paid the price
Of what was lost, and never found
And never will be, will you ever forgive me?
My skin is worn
From going on
And retracing all my steps
To the places that i forget
I've done all I can
To build it all again
But the walls begin to crack
One step forward, ten steps back
It's in me
The specter of my happiness
A body veiled with consequences
And fear of crushing loneliness
Well I
Have already paid the price
Of what was lost, and never found
And never will be, will you ever forgive me?
The embers of my selfishness
A life filled with second chances
And disappointing evidence
Well I
Have already paid the price
Of what was lost, and never found
And never will be, will you ever forgive me?
I want to defy the way I'm making choices
To wash myself clean of this lethargy
I want to embrace the silence of my voices
And move beyond some grand epiphany
You can belong if you choose it!
You can hold on and never lose it again!
You have the choice to abuse it!
Or you can admit that it is out of your hands
I'm setting personal lines
The boundary lies
Where I set my mind
I need it clearly defined
I'm setting personal lines
What I allow inside
These are walls I've aligned
To hide behind
I'm setting personal lines
Personal lines
I'm setting personal lines
Personal lines
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9. |
Sunhaze Coma
06:44
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Sunhaze
Coma
It's the feeling
That wells up and breaks me
Sunhaze
Coma
It's the feeling
I can't understand
But I certainly know
Sitting alone
Knowing no one's coming home
Staring through the blind
The sun it blinds me
Its shadows bind me
My memories
A deluge of faces and reveries
I'm overwhelmed
By the passage of time
Can't face the fact
It will soon be mine
The slow hand quickens
As the tension, thickens in me
Sunhaze
Coma
It's the feeling
That wells up and breaks me
Sunhaze
Coma
It's the feeling
I can't reconcile
But I certainly know
I stare at the world
Below
People without a care
Their dreams in this concrete
Minds without a heart beat
My convictions bare
Eyes without a stare
I second guess
Every second of time
Paid my dues
When will I get mine
The slow hand quickens
As the tension thickens in me
Sunhaze
Coma
It's the feeling
That sneaks up and kills me
Sunhaze
Coma
It's the feeling
I can't comprehend
But I painfully know
Peel apart the bitter moments
Feel inside the memories of old
I had a chance but i failed to own it
I made amends but i think that i messed up
Pulled inside the strong emotions
Keeping track of every grain of sand
Unwilling to admit my fears
'Cuz admissions will lead me to painful conditions
When will it be over
When will it be over
The slow hand quickens
As the tension thickens in me
Sunhaze Coma
Sunhaze Coma
My days are soon to be over
It's the lack of control that defeats me
Sunhaze Coma
It's what I can't admit
To myself, I'm just letting it grow
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10. |
(BONUS) Involver
07:51
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Can you stand to look into the eyes of nothingness
Well, it knows your name
Can you feel the heat of its gaze, trembling
You think it's all the same
One day the game will stop for you
What will you do
Will all your pompous energy?
You're fucking killing me
What will it take for you to get involved?
You're too fucking complacent!
Well I can still taste
The bad taste in my mouth
(That you left behind)
When will these discrepancies
Become your tendencies?
You're running out of time
To fucking make it mean something
Can you stand to look into yourself?
"This is fine"
Well I know you lie
Can you feel the sweat on your skin, quivering
You're running out of time
One day the game will stop for you
What will you do
Will all your pompous energy?
You're fucking killing me
What will it take for you to get involved?
You're too fucking complacent!
Well I can still taste
The bad taste in my mouth
(That you left behind)
When will these discrepancies
Become your tendencies?
You're running out of time
To fucking make it mean something
We have been here before
You and I both know
Nothings gonna change
So shoe me some evidence
You have confidence
Quit playing these fucking games
We have been here before
You and I both know
Nothings gonna change
You better have evidence
Or face the consequence
I bet you'd rather it stay the same
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Judge Drejj Washington, D.C.
Electronic/synth/industrial/something-wave from Washington DC.
FFO: Perturbator, Lucy in Disguise,
Brad Fiedel, John Carpenter, Hello Meteor, Tears for Fears, Depeche Mode, Front Line Assembly, NIN
Associated acts: Lithium Dawn
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